Now I can’t leave my bed anymore. ๐Ÿ™ It’s so cozy. 😚 But I hope to get myself out of bed after having typed this.

I wish I could fast forward to next week to see how the rest of this unfolds and to not have to consciously live through Easter. Another holiday all by myself. ๐Ÿ™ Without mijn liefjes. 🥺 And I don’t even want to think about cooking something nice in this bad supermarket related climate.

Haha oh my god are you also surprised by how calmly I respond to the people arguing against me, who are using the weakest statements of all time? It’s because it’s an advertisement and I’m doing it directly on behalf of my business that I’ve not made any death list threats.

When I, while I was typing this, read and responded to something who stated “Don’t open your mouth to speak (…)” I had to drift off to my happy place for a few minutes to fight myself from typing “Indeed, instead I will open your mouth TO PUT A FUCKING GUN IN IT”, and found better words instead. Also, being called “sir” and “mate” is just… (Don’t let me get back to influencers… Influencer sluts have ruined so much for me personally.)

Like I’ve been saying in the past (here simplified): we won’t waste our time with those who disagree with us. If one does not believe that voting per government decision is possible, he/she will not experience those privileges either. Without those pain in the ass people, this will all be super easy. Money is not a problem either. I’m not worried about either of those things. Meow I just can’t wait to finally get going and I so can’t wait to hear my Praesens state the policy I just described. 😍

Okay meow I’ll be cooking x

xxx

00:00 (12:00 AM) [CEST]; Kievitwijk, Antwerpiyae

Heyy liefjee ♥

When I couldn’t sleep last night, I decided to, after ages, log in to my university’s Blackboard account to see what I’ve missed. (A lot.) I saw a questionnaire for a research project about sexual assault. I love questionnaires and I love helping along with research projects, so I decided to fill it out.

When the personal questions came, memories I was starting to forget came back and I realized that I have never shared my experiences with anyone. Being overwhelmed by flashbacks after I submitted it was hard. Because I’m still all alone in this. (My pillow is not a person. ๐Ÿ™ ) I cried myself to sleep. Today I’ve been feeling empty and my happy place is nowhere to be found (hoping that I won’t lose myself with the next disapproving comment I get on my quotes).

I guess that’s also why I find it so difficult that Easter is coming up. Though it’s just a day, my outside world won’t suddenly look different, it comes with different energy where the desire to laugh with other people and eat together and feel cozy is suddenly a lot stronger. I never want to see my relatives again and I don’t want to feel the hurt from being as lonely as I am.

Meow I’ll make some new ads today. I’ve been reaching a lot of Asia and Africa, so my next quotes will be focused on Europe and the Americas. It’s great distraction. After that I’ll be reading example sentences, I guess.

Kusje x

xxx

21:20 (09:20 PM) [CEST]; Kievitwijk, Antwerpiyae